'Mum, why do people argue?' I asked as we sat in the garden. She looked at me and then looked away. My brother was running around with his football.
'Because sometimes people love each other so much, that it's hard when things start to go wrong.'
I was only a young child, but my mother had a habit of talking to me like I was her friend. It was something that helped me to learn how people worked.
'But if you love someone, you should be nice to them,' I replied, stroking my mothers hand as it rested on mine.
She nodded as a tear ran down her cheek and I reached up to wipe it away. I stood and put my arms around her. She hugged me back and no more words were said.
I was a receptive child and always knew how others were feeling. I remember wondering why everyone argued all the time. Why weren't they being nice to each other, especially when people claimed they loved one another? Growing up, I believed that people were not capable of loving and that we had to hold on to the people who did show us love.
The Deadliners wrote me. When I started to let myself be led by my pen, I didn't realise what story would emerge. Reading back after I'd finished, I could see the theme of letting go. My characters, much like people I grew up around, struggle to let go of loved ones when its time. They fight with themselves to try and keep a person close to them. Ultimately, as I grew older, I realised that its not others that make you happy, but yourself. If you are holding onto something, it will make you unhappy, but if you detach from it, it will have the freedom to come back to you or work out better. This is reflected in The Deadliners. These spirits are finding it hard to let go of people or situations because they fear what will happen if they do. The lesson for me as I wrote this book, was that everything happens for a reason and will always work out for the better when you let go and allow.
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